Betray’d

My heart hurts

With the betrayal of my heart and soul

Lies come to the surface

As truth returns to the core

A flame into a bucket of gasoline

I’m lit up like a living breathing fire

Like a moth to a flame

What am I drawn to

Grieving and hurt

Do I take this needle for the pain

Or do I just let this hurt stay

I lay on my bed

Rotting flesh, a corpse with no heart

No soul,

Just a shell of the person I once was

Holding onto what I once was

Then I realize…I am dead!

Numb with pain

Felling as if I had died a thousand deaths

Feeling the pain of each one

Do I continue with this pitiful existence

Or do I let the flame die out.

I have yet to decide

So I sit and wait

On a vision that comes too late.

 

3 times that makes this

Three times I heard her scream

Three times I saw her bleed

Three times I’ve watched her die

Three nights in a row

Three nights of no sleep

I try and not cry but that makes three times

I watched her die

My vision is blurry, my eyes hurt

My voice is gone

Three times I’ve hit my head

I sit beside her as if to comfort her

I know she is dead what do I do

Should I sit and weep

That’s when I realize I’m asleep

I awake looking around

I try to call out but hear no sound

I get up and run to her

I sit with her as she holds me

She comforts me

But that makes three times

I have come apart at the seam

But that’s when I realize it was just a dream

Over Christmas We lost a friend
Who remained quiet to the end
She was a great person, A real Angel
She loved life, It was precious, She was a saint
All who knew her were gracious
We all lovered her Well cared for her
Kayla you were our Guardian
You were our stone pillar
We lift your name on higher
you lift our spiredts even now
so now we will try to repay
In rememberence of the small quiet girl
I wish we could go back
To when laughter was in the air, you guve us Cheer
I lift your name from my heart toward the most high
as we cry here on earth, As we pray to see you soon
Our lives will then be complete
it is now 11:08 So I end it here
Kayla Dawn Blackbear
You were & Still are my gracious Saint of Cheer!